January 29, 2010
Yesterday
What makes today the better day? I asked myself this morning, woke up on a miserable mode. Flip my blanket to the other side, struggling to get up and face the world again. I do not know how I am going to start my day, in the end waked up from Hazel’s bark. Hazel is my second alarm, her barking is just simply loud and distract full sometimes. I do not know what colour to wear today, and so I choose dark green. Ever since Ms. Nalena want us to dress decently and be more professional so, no more shorts and slippers. Oh well, slippers is not my command in my dressing code so I can live with that but, shorts?! OMG! Trying very hard to bear with it since Malaysia is so hot and HOT! Hmm..
About yesterday, I went Glemarie to collect my IPOD cable from Bonnie (my former ex), ( hold on hold on, currently I’m sitting down outside Starbucks, meet “myfriend” –forget the name ! haha, anyway, he told me he pass by me just now and can’t recognize me and now he told me I look fatter. -.- what you want me to do? Conclusion, wrong outfit! And so ngam, I’m listening to the song, “I don’t give a fuck” hahaha ! Funny. ) talked to Bonnie for awhile which like less than 5 min. The conversation means a lot! I do not know how to describe it, it just make me feel like tears are coming out. He told me he set his Facebook status was in relationship with “someone” which is not true; he was just simply playing. I dint even notice his status, and now.. You do not need to explain to me, and when you did that you just make me feel like a fool more than anything that I could feel. You understand how I feel? Jeoy Hui ? One word for me.. GO! Go get her Bonnie, if that’s your will. I can’t do shit and I’m not like those ex gf that will take revenge on you. Or even wanna get you back. Is all come by fate and the interaction? I and you do not interact much nowadays so is alright for you to choose someone who is on your future path. And so, I couldn’t help my feelings by stopping it to cry. Parked my car at a side of the road and I started to feel my tears dropping nonstop.
Till then, I had a late brunch with Don at Pan Bakery and head back to Bukit Jelutong. While waiting for Aaron and “small” Daniel, chill at Don’s place and watch Japanese gross movie. -.-” Don is weird ! hahaha.. I stop the movie half way coz its serious makes me feel like vomiting. The whole movie is something like “saw”, if you watch that movie you should probably got the idea what I am talking here. Eeee, gross! Anyway, went to eat at 7days nearby Don’s house and I ordered “extra spicy” nasi goreng kampung. I regretted it, too spicy till I left it there half way. After dinner, went down Subang meet up with Grace (Aaron’s GF) and Azu at Silva. J Movie – The Tooth Fairy at 11.45pm. I don’t recommend you to watch it in cinema coz it’s not worthy. Hmm.. I went home straight after the movie, too tired. I slept till the next morning. J Love doing all this, coz, and my time won’t be occupied by thinking of you and how my feelings feel. I just need to do more new things.
p/s: tillnow, I’mstill.
Logging off,
I’ll be alright ! J
CARMEN LIM
